Look at my mini me!

I know I have been betraying my "I'll blog more from now on" statement - but I really cannot help it. At all. First, when I started writing, it's usually because I feel like I want to tell someone but at the same time I don't want people to know about it. And usually I will always feel better after writing a full post - and ended up deciding that it was too personal (for me) to be posted - I rather not having anyone knowing about it and saved it as a draft. I'm sorry but if we're talking personal I rather talk to my mother or not talk about it at all. Personal information is very dear to me now, I don't treat it like a short story in a compilation book.

Anyhow - as all of you already know, I have just started masters. This has only been only my second week though - but I feel like it's my third month because time has moved very slow. Not only I'm in a very tight budget - my car decided to be sick - some sort of problem during my registration and etc, but hey, I am still alive. So the first week was very much - well, nothing. I only had one day of "orientation" , and only one day of class for the whole week (next semester - no class!hurrah). What I did basically was just applying for jobs - watch movies - trying to get my car get his(yes, my car's a male) shit together and etc.

I am so glad I have someone I know taking masters with me! Everyone was so mature and I felt like such a baby. 

So I have met with my supervisor, I attended my class for two weeks now, I attended two job interviews and life is just beginning to start pacing up again. Currently I am just commencing on my research - like, I'm re-reading some of my previous findings and finding new ones. The things about finding research papers is that the access is soooo limited. When you find the one you want to read - hey, it's 30 bucks. It does not help that I'm freaking broke (thanks to my car). But I am trying my best - I'm so glad I actually have stuff to do now.

Other than that.. I'M HIRED! I was getting worried because I applied so so many places and after a week only one shortliest me for an interview. The first job interview was intimidating - the founder of the company could not understand why I wanted a job in Animation while I'm doing my masters in IT - ticked me off a bit really. I will not go into details because I really don't wish to talk bad about a company I'm not even working for.

The second job interview was so so sudden, I got a call 30 minutes before my scheduled meeting. I rushed there and I was so glad the environment was way better. You know, you just step into a company's office to know what kind of environment you're getting into. I mean, who wants to work in a company with a negative environment with such demanding commitment right? Anyhow, this time, the interviewer was so much comprehensive of the fact that I am doing my Masters, asked me relevant questions and gave off a good vibe. The kind that is a leader - not a boss, you know. I was ambushed by a surprise test to use two designing softwares and one photography evaluation. I mean, I got the call 30 minutes before the interview - I obviously did not prepare anything at all, However, I managed to pull through - I could have done better but I guess it was ample since the next day they immediately told me I got the job and my test results were more than satisfactory, heheh. Ofcourse, I accepted it ASAP, who wouldn't. Commitment was not as demanding, they even pay more than my expected salary and have a more positive environment compared to the first company. They were kind enough to give me a flexible schedule for me to have time for my masters. Alhamdulillah, I was so happy, I was getting a little worried but I have to blame myself because I was impatient.

That's that, and I also got an email the next day that I have been rewarded by Tabung Amanah Zakat Uniten (TAZU) with some $$ for getting more than CGPA of 3.75 for two semesters in a row. I got rewarded last year as well - but I think I was too busy to talk about it. Alhamdulillah once more, I could not be more grateful.

Truth be told, I was feeling a bit down after a couple of incident this week, I lost so much money, I feel horribly guilty that my parents still provide me money - then my aunt, I did not go out - I did not buy all those "comfot food", I feel so underfed, I haven't felt so hungry for a while (I miss my mom's cooking!), I did not go out, I kept thinking about the future, and maybe because it's fasting season I got a little more feelings than I usually would - I convinced myself that everything were just obstacles of Ramadhan and I just let it all go - accept; redha, you know. And right after that redha point - notifications of my upcoming rewards came continuously - first the job, second the TAZU, third - well, nothing I'm going to state here (no, nothing related with being in love) and I just feel very appreciative. It pays when you calm down and just accept and remember that all obstacles on par with your tolerance.

The beautiful rainbow on last wednesday! "After rain comes the rainbow" for sure!

So that really is just about it really - for now. I think I'll try and blog about a couple more things before I start working soon? we'll see - I can't promise because I have some researches to do. Till then, and happy fasting!

written @ 12:28 AM