fragile mind

Thursday, August 25, 2016.

The Radiance of the Far Future

I've GRADUATED! YAY!

So, I just had my convocation on the 20th August and it has been satisfying! Personally, I feel more happy than sad - that I got a degree. Because basically I'm still a Master's student here so I'm not going anywhere.

My diploma graduation sucks - it was in the evening - I had to leave early so no picture time with friends - my performance during diploma was not as good as degree I tell you. I remember telling my father "I didn't know how to study during my diploma days - only now I do." he laughed although I was serious. I'm not one of those lucky people with naturally smart brains and naturally organised. I trained everything from top to bottom to deserve everything that I get for my degree performance. Probably because I've been rewarded heaps of time for doing good - I feel motivated and happy. Maybe this graduation feels a little more significant. Because it meant something.

Thanks to a friend everything was hectic that day. I was in campus at 6:30 AM but I could not make it on time still! By the time it was 7.30 AM, we arrived at the parking area (it was so far! and I could not park anywhere else) and had to walk with our heels like, 3km to the hall. I arrived, sweating with half of the makeup down my face. I was ticked off that I had to be late because of someone else (I really just despise that) - but it was convocation so, I decided to let it go.

However, by the end of the day - everything went well. I even had ample time to take photos this time - my father took them beautifully. I guess being late does make it more memorable? That's all for now :)

The shawl and the dress, I bought them the day before. Because I have been so busy with my studies and work - I did not have the time. But thank god this was ample for my taste :)

written @ 12:59 AM

I believed in just believing

One of my favourite lecturer - Dr. Chen.

I received an email that I have been a recepient of the Majlis Anugerah Industri Graduan Cemerlang 2016 UNITEN on the 18th of August, without knowing exactly what on earth it is. I asked the university but they only gave me vague answers. However, on the day of the ceremony itself, I finally got my answers. I was awarded Outstanding Bachelor of Information Technology (Graphics and Multimedia) Undergraduate, sponsored by UZMA Berhad (yes, that means with $$).

Basically selected students from each programmes were rewarded their own awards sponsored by companies that chose too. Some got from TnB, some got from TAZU, as for me I got from UZMA. There was a mention during the speech session that it was based on both academic and curricular - but I really think it was up to the company which students they wanted to sponsor ( I was not actually paying attention at that time, sorry haa).

We had a little bit of talk with our sponsors - exchanged contacts. I just had lunch with them today too.

Nonetheless, it was a recognition. The final award I achieved from my degree programme is the most prestigious. It would have not been made possible I for all the untold stories of struggle, bloodsweat and effort that I put for my degree performance. The unheard prayers from my family too. It feels great to be honored, and hard work pays off - eventually.

I'm in a state of poverty after I decided to not rely fully on my parents and started earning my own money - and truth be told, my current job + masters - is not doing me justice. I spent most of my money on fuel and tol money. But at the same time, these little cash rewards I get from my degree performance helped me - a lot. Yes, I paid a lot for my education in Uniten, Yes, I sacrifice more than just sleep to get good grades, Yes, I gave up going home too often - and I might not find it worth it back then - but it's definitely worth it now.

written @ 12:18 AM

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